So I'm a bad guy, because I was only being nice because I thought I was supposed to. It's confusing but I get it. Basically I suck but I don't have the balls to come out and be the terrible guy I am. I never learned how to show my true colors and I haven't done much to make me seem bad but if I didn't feel like I was being watched, if I could get away with it I'd be just as terrible as the rest of them.
Somehow women can sense this, because my shyness and inability to be aggressive shows them that I'm hiding something. (My true nature) I come off as unconfident because I'm not sure the real me will be accepted... because it wouldn't be... because it's a bad person.
I come off as creepy because I'm trying to trick women into thinking I should be accepted by doing things for them and hanging around them even though I really don't care if they're happy, I just want to make them happy enough to sleep with me. (Which I do honestly, I want girls to be so happy with me that they want to sleep with me). So really all I care about is that they sleep with me, which is why none of them do and why they just string me along, because it's my own fault for being underhanded about it and they've just figured it out and turned it to thier advantage.
Here's where I need help:
If I was to just be my own terrible self and not hide it, just be the real me, it would be better because "at least with an asshole women know what they're getting" and they would sleep with me but not date me because they would know from the start what I was. Except some would date me because they like a challenge and would like to "tame
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Wow... You know what I believe?
That you try to convince yourself that you are a bad guy. I think you are just a player, as you want to "use" girls just to sleep with them.
There is a difference between being a player and being a bad guy.
I think that you actually... deep inside you, you want to feel truly loved by someone. This is why you act like that. Because you believe you're not worthy.
You'll find someone that will see what you're hiding behind the mask of the bad guy that you want to use... that will love you for truly what you are.. Probably that girl exists even now, but is scared to show you as you come off as a player.
Probably I'm wrong, but this is why I believe for what I read.