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You and me and 100 million other guys are the same way. I am 3 years older than you and i will tell you 2 imperative facts regarding this that i have learned as I've matured.
1. A relationship WILL NOT truly make you happy with yourself. But being truly happy with yourself WILL lead to a sustainable relationship. So basically, work on pursuing your own goals and the other stuff will come, i promise you.
2. And this fact hurts for those of us who get anxious by just talking to Girls. The ONLY way you will get better at conversing and engaging women is through practice. So after you've talked to a girl and you embarrassed yourself immensley, dont let that put you down. LEARN from it. You simply MUST keep trying if you wish to improve. Even when you think that you'll never be able to flirt or be close with a girl, just remember that people just like you have made it through and you are never a "lost cause". You WILL make it.