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There's creepy weird and there's "cool weird". The cool weird guy isn't as insecure about himself as what you wrote above. He's comfortable being his own man and being an outsider. Many girls might not like that, but there are some who are intrigued and REALLY into that.
My advice to you is find a hobby the complements your lifestyle and stick to it. Get your validation out of life from an activity, not from women.