Most Helpful Guy
Do understand that if this was done the other way around the guy would go to jail. So you need to put a stop this immediately. Secondly it looks like jealousy (and maybe trust issues) is making you do this.
I have been in a similar situation. She was sicking jealous. And it just got worse and worse. A punch of her crushed my eye and it took over two years for it to fully heal. It is safe to say that we are no longer together.
Don't do this this to him and yourself. You did the first step by admitting there is something wrong here. I respect that. Find some professional help and take it from there before it gets any worse.
Most Helpful Girl
Might I suggest you immediately enrol on an anger management course.. It might just save you from inflicting a very serious injury to your boyfriend.
In all honesty it truly beats me why he is still with you.. He really must be one hell of a guy to put up with all your abuse.