my bipolar depression led me to drinking where a guy made out with me. I tried to get away and i couldnt. i felt so guilty, i had to text him. he told me to delete him off everything. He said im wonderful girl and he wishes me well but he no longer wanted to date me.
i feel so depressed. I truly believe we were meant to be. Everyone pales in comparsion and i cry whenever i see a photo off him. i just want to die.
Most Helpful Guy
I probably gonna sound harsh, but it is what it is, you fucked up. The guy did what he had to do which was forget about you, and you should do the same with him. You can't change the past, you can only learn from it. The bright side is that it was you who fucked this up, therefore, it's in your hands to never do this again.
You can't just drink and hookup with a guy whenever you feel depressed, you gotta control yourself, cause if you keep doing that you will definitely end up alone.
You're almost 17, you will find the one, but only if you really want to.2THIS IS NOT RELEVANT ANYMORE
Most Helpful Girl
It might sound heartless, but having the "love of your life" at 16 isn't realistic. You had a grand experience with a guy you felt was it and that's normal. You're going to have these feelings again in the future for someone else. You make a mistake -- big deal, we all make mistakes -- and you take these things with you as you go along in life to know what works and what doesn't in your life. Your bipolar/depression is no excuse to hurt people, and you found that out. Now you know when you get involved again how to control some urges that failed you in the past.
Of course it hurts when you think you met the exact perfect person in your life. Guess what -- he's not so perfect. If he was, he would still be with you. Instead he's not, so that's not so perfect. I'm not suggesting that it's wrong of him to not give you a second chance, or that you shouldn't get one. What he did was entirely up to him, but the fact remains he's not in the picture now, therefore, he's not "the one".
You are going through a detoxing phase right now where you're going to feel some guilt and grief over losing this person from your life, and that's totally normal to look back and think he was so perfect and you did this horrible thing that had you not done, he'd be with you. He would have been out the door after a few months if something else came up. You just don't know. Go through your grief, read some material on depression and how to cope, try some relaxing treatments such as a hot bath and spa music to listen to before bed, and day by day, you will get stronger. The main thing is not to give this so much control that you have another 80 years to go thinking he was your one and only. He wasn't. You'll be meeting someone who right now is wondering where you've been all his life too, and you don't even know it yet.0THIS IS NOT RELEVANT ANYMORE