He wanted to be my first kiss so last day of school at 10pm he kissed me and a few days later told me how much he liked me. I liked him too but too many reasons why we shouldn't date.
We kept going as friends but every time we hung out we would end up making out in his car bc we just were too attracted. He told me he wanted me to be happy and so he'll change. So we tried dating but we just ended up unhappy bc of the things we knew wouldn't work. The last time I saw him he showed up at my house at 1am and kissed me. We spent the whole night till 7am talking and kissing in his car where we said I love you. But we said we should stop seeing each other.
so we haven't for a month and recently just started texting again. When I tell him I still have feelings and ask him if he does he just says "I try not to. And I don't want to go there rn" and I don't know if he really doesn't Love me anymore or if he's just trying not to. He also knows how much I want him to stay in my life and says he's staying with me even though it's hard for him bc he cares about me and knows I get depressed. He says he never wants me to feel alone again and still uses names like "honey" and "sweetheart" when trying to comfort me. We both know it's not gonna work, but he keeps saying these things so I want to know if he still thinks there's some hope?