Anyway, I have a boyfriend, its an unhealthy relationship I cannot remove myself from easily. Mainly because he has had a tough time recently and also because I don;t want to be on my own. This guy is 4000 miles from me so it doesn't make sense to give up my life to meet this guy and then throw everything in to turmoil.
HOWEVER I did REALLY like him. I was hoping to meet him when I go to his country to model and maybe hang out but I did a silly thing on Saturday...
Someone knocked my confidence and I started to doubt everything, why would this guy want me? He hangs out at the playboy mansion FFS... I am just average girl next door type (apparently what he liked best about me). So I got all insecure and asked why he was bothering with me when he could have all these other girls... he then says 'what are you complaining about?' I said 'well come on we both know you dont want me really' and then he stopped talking.
I realised my mistake instantly in that I had let someone bring me down again and what is more unleashed my insecurities to him. So my question is how to I make him see I am not totally nuts and start talking again? I tried apologising and explaining. He doesn't get why I won't just leave my boyfriend but its because I am scared I end up alone... I also cannot leave him as he has had a rough time lately and he is finally getting better... So advice guys? please?