basically, were both into each other and have openly admitted to being stupidly attracted to each other, but he's away at a dif school and doesn't want a relationship right now. i fell hardcore over him for almost 7 months, but now its turned into physical lust and no longer emotional.
he's only home in December for the Christmas holidays and then for a few months of the spring and summer and we want to see each other during that time. we've never specifically said that were going to end up hooking up , but i know that it will happen the minute we see each other again and he knows it to. its kinda an unspoken expectation i find. its been a year since weve seen each other and we've wanted to see each other the whole time, but things happened and timing was off, so obvi there's some built up tension here that needs releasing (at least on my part lol).
anyways, i just started dating this guy, who is super sweet, but hasn't made any physical advances on me yet and im not sure if i see him romantically or as a friend. even though im seeing this one guy, i dream about the other guy (like sex dreams and stuff). my body craves him and im kinda at a cross road right now.
being that im a virgin, having a friends with benefits thing is not something im familiar with, nor am i 100% sure is right for me. i know that i will enjoy my time with him and that i will finally be relieved of my sexual frustration haah but im worried that i may start developing feelings for him again. i dont think i will because i know he's not looking for comittemnt right now, but we both like each other so i dont see a problem with it. my problem is that if i were to do this, i dont know how id bring it up to him and keep it from my parents (live at home with them). due to our past, my parents think i dont communicate with him anymore, but they dont know that i still talk to him.