Most Helpful Guy
Your mother should have made better life choices when she was younger and should stop blaming everyone else for her bad decisions. Your mom sounds like every white/ghetto trash female in existence. I get the feeling you and your sibling all have different dads and those dads are not around, right? Did your mom have a drug habit?
You need to get away from her dumb ass and make a life for yourself.
Most Helpful Girl
No offense, but perhaps your mother should have kept her legs closed and she wouldn't have so many children to feel burdened by. You didn't ask for her to be your mother. None of us get to choose which woman ends up giving us life and having that impactful place in our journeys. So I hate to be frank, but if your mother was so spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and financially unequipped to be an outstanding mother and make children feel loved then she should have stayed off the d*ck. You did nothing wrong. It is not your fault that you exist: she's the one who chose to have sex. I don't know what happened in her past to make her so cold hearted, but she needs to address it, dismantle it, and fix it. That's her business and try your best not to make her emotional baggage your emotional baggage.
What you can do is use this as an opportunity to establish independence and self-sufficiency. Use her example to encourage you to never be that type of woman when it comes to finances or human lives. Struggle now so that you can be surrounded by success in your 30's. Chin up, you are lovely.