I've never been very confident and this absolutely wrecked my self-esteem. To put so much into it and to not be good enough for her kills me. When I look in the mirror I hate what I see. Ugly hair, glasses, bad teeth, pale, short, skinny. In a word: ugly. As far as my personality, I guess there are a few things I don't totally hate, but the best thing I can say is I'm nice. I'm not into this thing of "nice guys finish last", but if the only thing you have to offer is you're nice you're kind of screwed.
When I see a girl who I think is cute I immediately assume she's out of my league. I just don't see why they would want to date me. In fact, I feel guilty if I try to talk to a girl. I figure she doesn't want to deal with my shit and what does it say about my opinion of her if I actually think she'd go for a guy like me?
I've never been in anything remotely like a relationship. I'm completely clueless as to how to talk to girls, how to date, how real relationships work vs. what you see on TV. And all this at an age when everyone is dating, hooking up, or getting engaged like it's no big deal.
All I've ever wanted is to find love. With every passing day I feel my chances become slimmer and I hate myself even more. I don't know what to ask really. I guess I need to figure out how to accept my life as it is and learn to be happy (or at least content) with being single. I don't know. I'm at a loss, but any advice would be appreciated.