When I look at people, I've felt through the years how I am so unconfident and down and have a hard time raising my energy, pretending I'm OK. Infact I can't pretend - barely; I can barely go day to day.
I went through year of severe abuse and trauma in my family unit.
I'm not a bad looking guy though.
When I look at people - I feel they're so confident and I think I compare myself to them and feel shame. They're so confident. Even if there's shit they're going through - they're confident.
I was watching a model do all sorts of interveiws this morning on youtube - a really beautiful one, because I was curious what she was like. I looked at her pics and the way she talked and she seemed to carefree. She wasn't stupid at all but I couldn't tell if she was naive at all. She seemed... too confident then...
I thought eventually... could it be just that she's had a lot of nice experiences and I've had a lot of bad ones and that I'm not actually "lower" than her because she would be in the same position I am if she went through what I went through.
So... there's nothing really to be ashamed of?
Her life has just been completely different than mine!
If I were to go out on a date with her and she thought something was strange about me - it would just be that we're completely different?
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The road to confidence is different for everyone. Some haven't had many bad experiences and that helps. Others have had to struggle to overcome and built confidence.0