However, I can't get over the fact that he wants me to grow my hair long, start pouting more, get thick yet not wear any make up cuz he hates make up.
And ironically, I've always been in love with short hair- he's only seen me with long hair when we first started dating and I am naturally very skinny.
He didn't say all of this together. Rather it was in a series of months.
This hurts cuz he makes me feel insufficient. And I've always loved him even when he went through his ugly phase- he was fat*no offense to anyone* , nerdy, wouldn't talk much when we first started dating and I waited for 6 months for him to start opening up to me!
I can't help but feel insufficient every time I think about him now. I know that he'll tell me I'm perfect if I ask him cuz he doesn't want to sound ruthlessly rude. It bothers me so much. What should I do?