I did not realize I was doing it. Usually meeting new people and dating comes hand in hand. Its just that I meet assholes every time I use to start talking to guys. The 2 current guys that I am talking to are not like that, but its not like they made any actual effort to move out of friendship with me.
I am really thinking about making my life better and making myself better. Im rewriting my novel, and I am very pleased with the result. For once in my life, I am learning to care about myself 100%