I've suffered from severe depression since I was a little girl because of stuff that happened to me when I was little. (I'd prefer to not say here). And I ended up being put n foster care for a while and finally got adopted when I was 13, I'm currently 17 now. Well I still suffer from depression and have cut for many years, and about a year and a half ago I attempted suicide by slitting my wrist. My mom ended up finding me in the bathtub and rushed me to the hospital and I got released after awhile. Because of this I've been homeschooled almost my whole life. And this year was the first year I was able to attend school as a junior. And I ended up falling for this boy in my year. He's really cute and we've hung out a lot and he's even taken me on my first date and is kinda like my first boyfriend. I really really like him and we've gotten serious about each other in the last month or so. And I think soon we'll probably progress n2 being more intimate together. But the problem is as I've already said I have a history with cutting and the suicide attempt. So I have scars on my arms and legs. Particularly from trying to slit my wrist. I normally wear lots of bracelets or something to cover them up. So I've kept them hidden and the students don't know about it. But because of how I feel about him and that we've started getting more intimate together and I think we'll end up having sex soon I want him to know about it so he isn't just blindsided about it. But I'm scared of how he'll react and how to honestly tell him. I haven't hurt myself since I tried that but I know it would still worry some people and I don't wanna make him worry about me. But I think it's something he needs to know about me
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"he's even taken me on my first date and is kinda like my first boyfriend." He IS your first boyfriend and it's okay to say that.
Tell him. Tell him that you need to talk. Explain about your past. Intimacy is not just about sex. It is about sharing your secrets and fears, your heartaches and your dreams. If you want a relationship and not just a sexual experience, tell him.
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