"it hurts me when you joke about wanting to die/no one caring. I know it's just jokes but it's not funny. I'd really miss you "
he sent back "That's very sweet. But I mean like a sniper shot - quick and painless. Not like immolation or anything" I texted "lol oh well then that's ok 🙄" and he said "it's cathartic to talk like that bc it's so ridiculous." Then we joked about other things. I want to ask him if he's free to hang tomorrow but I'm not sure if that's too needy. We were supposed to hang the last two weekends but it didn't work out. One was my fault. The other was his bosses fault