as most of you know I've been rejected multiple times. whenever I imagine myself in the future concerning matters of the heart, I always picture myself with someone I just don't trust her. whenever I daydream about being with a girl I like, it's not that I don't like her but because I've been hurt in the past and because I find it hard to believe that anyone can really love nearly every aspect of me and genuinely like me. so I don't trust her and I don't like showing my affection. is this a fear of intimacy or something else?