I feel guilty not giving this girl a chance, party because I feel like I encouraged it, and partly because we're both on the less attractive side. At the same time I find her boring. I'm not looking for a young adult model, but her looks do little for me. And yet I'm a pretty desperate guy and feel tempted to go with the first person that comes along in hopes that those emotional longings will be silenced. I've invested so much mental energy into developing friendships with girls that I feel are worthy of loving without success, and now I've basically been given an invitation. A girl whose interest I don't have to fight for.
I can't see myself with this girl. I wish I could just have something temporary with her. To see what it's like. To have that experience for the first time in my life. How do I keep from hurting her? Should I just go and explain myself now? Am I being stupid? :(