1. Had sex
2. Been on ONE date
3. Kissed a guy
4. Had a boyfriend.
And, despite some guys who’ve confessed their crush towards me, I get really terrified of getting attached. I don’t know why. I’ve never even been hurt badly before; my family is loving and nurturing (except my mom who’s a bitch), and yes I’ve had crushes on guys many times. Every single time, they also liked me back but it didn’t go anywhere significant.
Over the years I’ve learned that I’ve been actively avoiding intimacy with everyone and not just guys. Also girls and friendships in general. I feel insecure.
How do I let people in?
Most Helpful Girl
You mentioned your mom was a bitch. Maybe she has had an effect on you whereby you feel worthless and “not enough”. If that’s the case - therapy is the cure.
Also if you grew up in a fundamentalist Christian environment (like me), then you’ve been through the whole brainwashing process where sex looks like a satanic thing to do and kissing a guy before marriage is a horrible sin. You just have to realize and really understand that this is all bs.
Most Helpful Guy
Well, I must admit am very similar to you
I never kissed a guy