The college is like 12 miles away from me and he hasn't asked to see me tonight, we have plans this Saturday. What does this mean?
Most Helpful Guy
He is extremely serious about you, listen, if you truly are worthless, then it should be easy to build you up from rock bottom no? If not, then there's a lot there you may not know about and that's a good thing to explore, or create with someone, with him, Let go of what could be, that's out of your hands and focus on what could be, with what you can create, and thats a scary thought, but you have nothing to lose and everything to gain, you need to strive to be the person you want to be, don't you want him to see you at you're best, imagine how much he'd compliment you then! AND don't you dare, rule out anything for yourself, don't beat yourself up for thinking negatively, but don't let them be truths in your life, Don't be afraid to say someone is worth the possibility of pain, and who cares if he didn't ask for you, you want to see him, so long as you're as nice as possible about what you want, there is no problem in asking or going for it!
Most Helpful Girl
You clearly have some major self esteem issues, everything you're feeling is a direct result of low self esteem, it's compounded by your depression.
It matters to you the nice things he says but for those reasons nothing hits home for you.
I'm not going to say think positive, or trust him enough to believe what he says to you bc that too won't matter right now.
I will say this there is help out there for you, I'm not going to say it's easy or it happens fast bc it takes time to get on the other side but if I were you I'd see a professional, they know exactly what you need.
You will one day look back on this and be so grateful you got help.
There's so many like you that have recovered, you're worth it, give yourself a break and first find someone that specializes in depression.
It starts with the first step, please take it.