Most Helpful Guy
I'd talk to him about how you've been feeling and explain why you didn't want to tell anyone. It sounds like he's pretty supportive, so he's probably concerned for you.
But also, if you have supportive parents are any adults in your life you can trust you she definitely talk to them too. It sounds like you're going through some stuff, and there's no reason to do it on your own.
Most Helpful Girl
You need to talk with your parents or another trusted adult. This is very dangerous activity and your need help to stop. Please seek help.