But to be honest I really liked being with him, yes we're very similar in many ways which i don't really like but then again better to have someone during hard times than to suffer alone. I tried asking if we could start again and he said it was over. i tried talking but he refused to listen. but after that i still acted normal saying at least lets be friends and just be like before which he then replied "that's what i wanted to hear". but even so there is awkwardness. we make small talks. I hate awkwardness. he still glances at me and does make small effort to talk to me and listens to little things i mention to my friends. in some ways im glad he left because i wouldn't want to be of burden especially since my life is a mess right now. but at the same time i wish he was here to hold me.
Anyone got any suggestions to what i could do to fix things? or even just make it less awkward?