But here is my question. I have noticed the change in guy's attitudes toward me based on the number on the scale. When I am in good shape, everything I say is funny (it's probably not) and I get a decent amount of attention (I am not particularly attractive, I am just highlighting that my shape is responsible for this if any attention). When I am overweight i. e. now, guys are almost afraid to be seen with me. I'm the same person, same weird quirks and interests but not a guy in sight.
It makes me really cynical in my interaction with men when I am thin. I have had the situation again and again - when I'm thin, I'll meet a guy, he's being so nice and sweet, he's laughing at my jokes but I put on weight and he pretends to not know me and starts avoiding me. Okay I get it - you want to make it obvious that the stakes have changed and you are no longer interested. But is the reaction and the disgust justified? The only thing about me that has changed was my looks so is this all that this was ever based on?
Can you guys explain the thinking here?
It's really bumming me out. I'm at a point where I just don't take any guys seriously anymore. I know I need to shape up again but this side to it is just really bothering me; it makes me feel that it is the only thing I need to do to be able to meet the right person - and that doesn't feel like a good thing.