I never am jealous of my friends I actually cheer them on wen they actually get the girl I never hate on them. I just get mad wen I get rejected and Embarrassing as Even tho the girl didn’t do anything to embarrass me. I felt angry this one time and just cut off friends because of it and some just didn’t want to associate with me anymore because I got mad over it. but I just felt like oh since you don’t like me fuck you and everyone else I never said that out loud but I’m sure I was clear with my energy. I know it’s not good but I been single my whole life that’s no excuse tho. and I get bad attention from some because of this well whatever is done is done tho I don’t really want to talk. to anymore because I feel that any girl that even likes me I just be making her look bad. because of how I chose to act in the past but I just hate that I even made it worse on my reputation.