You are very right. I know that, it's just my life long dream. My ultimate goal, is to have a family of my own one day. A happy wife and 3-5 kids.
Then I suggest you ask the Lord to help you and get rid of these things so that way you can have that dream. Because you don't need these things to hold you down. The more you focus on healing yourself and renouncing those things out of your life, your going to go places.
Your welcome. Take care. They have focus groups, programs, etc that you can look at for some guidance. But know that it is possible. But you have to know the root that got you all 5. Once you know the roots you can pluck it out. Once you pluck it out, know that you may not get an immediate result, or you just may. But don't do this by yourself.
I can't do it with anyone. I'll just drag them down with me. I've been to therapy before for the problems, but my Dad kinda forced me to stop because he was getting sick and tired of it.
If you can't do it with anyone, and she can't do it. Then again, why are you dating?
I'm not dating anyone right now. I wish I was. Being in a relationship gives me such confidence and drive to do better it just naturally brings up my mental health without asking her of anything.
You can do that just by volunteering, working in charity, and having good friends who bring that out of you. It is your choice to only hold that in for a relationship. Relationships are what you make of it. And I am telling you as somebody who never dated. Don't be fulled with the 'grass is always greener' mentality. It doesn't anything for you. You have to work with what you got and you build with that. You have all these problems. You need healing first before you end up ruining somebody else's future.
You need to go back to therapy. ASAP.
I can't afford it. Honestly it's way to expensive. The last one was going to charge me 1000$.
You realize that you can apply for assistance right. You have to tell them that you can't financially afford it and need coverage. If you don't have medical coverage you need one immediately.
I need to find out how to get medical coverage first. I don't know how any of this works. I was never taught
Neither was I, don't worry about it. What you would have to do is go to a clinic or hospital. Ask them if they have medical assistance forms for you to fill out, as you have no insurance. Tell them why you need one. And they should be able to have a few copies. You can go to your states website and fill it out. But I highly suggest that you speak to a social worker who works at the hospital. From there, they should be able to link you to the right people depending on your needs.
What sucks is that my parents see all my transactions from my bank account
You are going to have to get that straighten out with your parents. If they cannot accept the fact that you want to go back to counseling, then again, you need to talk to social workers who can speak for you on that one.
Right. My dad wouldn't like it at all
It's not about what your dad won't like. At this point it doesn't even matter. What matters is your health and your safety.
I dont even think I'm worth fixing at this point. I always fail at everything and honestly, I kinda just want everything to... end.
What if the other person had all these things from trauma and not genetic?
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