I always like a guy or love them when they seem to not share the same feelings. I never seen as the girl that a guy would go all out for try to romance or see me more than just a roll in the hay. My ex drilled that into my head, that no dude will see me as more than just sex. At first I didn’t believe it but now I kind of do. And me being a mother makes it that much harder to find someone who truly cares and love me. I get so self conscious that I hold back my true personality in fear that I would be turned away. I feel uninteresting, dull, and have nothing going for me. I will probably die alone. And never feel what mutual love feels like.