I finally went on my date last night. It had been storming..but it stopped right before he picked me up. I was awkward.. I wasn't myself at all. And, when I was myself...i was the parts I shouldn't be on a date. I didn't know what to say. I looked really stupid. It kills me how I'm articulate in my writing..but I stutter and get scared in person. I told him I had social anxiety at one point..and he seemed cool with it. But, he didn't ask me for another date..or say he'd call. And, I really don't know if he's interested or not. Someone told me I needed to stop being a "mind reader" because I can't tell what people think. But..I feel like I really screwed up. I forgot to compliment him on how he looked..but he didn't compliment me either.. I don't even know if he's attracted to me or not.. But, he was a gentleman.. He took me out to eat, and payed for it.. and took me to a movie and payed for it. But I feel like I was a really sh*tty date. I've been raised in a negative environment..and I've been around it for so long..that its hard for me to not talk about negative things when I open up.. So I tried not to open up. I just wanted to break down and tell him everything.. but stayed quiet instead. I told him I was afraid of over-sharing random parts of my life, and things about myself that he didn't want to know about..and he asked why and said, "It's better than silence.." I want to text him.. but I haven't because I'm afraid of seeming clingy or weird.. I really don't know what to do. Or if there's anything I can do.
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When I was younger, around 17 I used to have social anxiety. You'd never know it if you knew me now. I think that going out on a date is a little awkward for both parties involved. Your both just getting to know each, so don't feel like your the only one. You also don't need to be an open book about your life, but keep positive.
I really believe that being happy is as simple as staying positive. Even in negative environments, and I also grew up in a negative environment and at times, it really did add to my social anxiety and overall pressure in life. Now its a lot better. I learned a lot about myself by pushing past negativity, and after I did I felt empowered and stronger.
I think in this situation you could throw a text his way thanking him for the date, and say you felt a little off that day. If he is a gentleman he will understand, and appreciate your honesty.1