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I understand you being depressed over not having a job. Men's identities are closely tied to their job/career and being able to provide, more than many women realize.
BUT... your actions will always have consequences, and by letting yourself get depressed around her, and by arguing with her and pushing her, you have pushed her away, and you're going to have to take responsibility for that and accept it. You had more than one "second chance" with her, and that's more than most people ever get, but when you go right back to the same patterns of behavior that broke you up before, you can't be surprised when it happens again.
This is a hard lesson, so hopefully you'll learn it well and not repeat the mistake with the next girl.1THIS IS NOT RELEVANT ANYMORE