I feel I'm never gonna get better socially no matter how hard I try to improve myself, no matter how many times I step out of my comfort-zone, another reason that is really making me feel like giving up is because of 2 bad experiences happening lately, I got lead on by 2 girls on Plentyoffish in the past week, it really angers me, pisses me off when that happens, this is how I see, view it:
Getting rejected by a girl is one-thing, getting teased and lead on is another, I hate it when girls make me think I have a chance with them and then they deny my further advances, the advances that would lead up to a first date, or a second date, I'm mature enough to realize and accept that the world, life, society owes me nothing, that I am not entitled to anything, but I would rather get denied something, get rejected for something instantly immediately right away!, if a girl is not interested in me, I wish she would be honest, clear with me right from the start!, don't play any mind games with me, I don't want to have my time wasted like that!, Like the first girl on Plentyoffish, we talked for almost a week, we spoke on the phone and texted each other, we were planning to meet-each other, she was okay with that, she even said "I hope we get to meet up before I go back to school", and then the last message, she said to me "I only see us as acquaintances, I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings or got your hopes up too high" and then she blocked me on that site.
The next time, a girl messages me first on that site, we were getting along just fine just messaging each other on there, and then all of a sudden she stops responding to my messages, like I even asked if her wanted to meet up sometime and said Yes, that was the last thing she ever responded to.
I obviously did not ask her that in my first response to her, we were talking and asking questions getting to know each other first.
I hate how people always say "well that girl was not the only girl around, the world is full of girls, keep in mind that girl isn't the only one around, HELL just look around, you'll notice that there are a lot of girls around, and I'm sure one that is better then the one that turned you down, I have another little secret for you - there's more than one girl out there. It's shocking news, I know, but there's hundreds, maybe even THOUSANDS of women that live right in your hometown. If you include every place within driving distance, that number might even be tens of thousands. So don't get wrapped up in one girl that isn't interested in you. It's a huge confidence boost when you remind yourself that she's missing out on a great thing, and you move on and find someone that appreciates you for you, you have ALL the power to move on and find someone else, if the girl doesn't see what she's missing out on. Her loss, mate."
Well it's hard to move on when you don't have any past success with girls. I've thought about suicide before
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I have Asperger's also so I know how difficult it can be sometimes, I'm not in too different of a situation. What I've found has worked best for me is to focus on improving myself as much as possible. I have taken up many new hobbies, undergone academic/professional training to get my career where I want it to be, and gone to therapy to work on my social skills. I've found that once I open up to people and show them who I am as a person, they are much more forgiving if I don't exactly possess the highest social graces. Even though many times it may seem like things will never get better, I assure you that things can always improve, no matter how bad they may seem. Sometimes it just takes a little bit of hard work and determination ;)
Also, and I mean no offense by this comment, but it sounds as though you are somewhat desperate and angry. One thing I have learned is that when you act desperate, it shows and people are turned off by it. I'm not saying by any means to stop looking, but I am saying that you should perhaps put your focus into other areas of your life, and make romance a secondary rather than a primary goal for the time being.
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