He also had ended a relationship over six months ago. Another thing I am 38 and he is 29.. wow! I WAS very scared when he started admitting feelings for me.. I tried so so hard to fight it off but he was a very persistent fellow..
My confusion came when he mentioned one night while we were making love, he said " well you better enjoy this one as this will be your last time with me, what do you think, how are you feeling, would you be hurt if I should say that , would you say that I am using us" then he would say " My goodness , you actually believe me, come on I'm kidding" Now I am not accustom to those jokes that appears serious and then they become oh, its a joke..
Now yesterday while we were together relaxing, we started a conversation, well I started the conversation so I asked.." Do you think we are doing the right think, do you thinks its a mistake with us, our age and the fact that we work at the same place" and his response was " Yes" so I asked, which on of the factor, the age or the fact that we work together" he said "both , you know you force it out of me" So I said when did you realize that and he said " I have been thinking about it and was saying its better for us to stop now before it goes any further, how does it make you feel to know that I was using you, I am not joking, this is not the best place to talk about this" then he kissed me on the face and say "I am kidding, I bet now you get confuse" well I said yes of course, I was feeling so hurt, so I said to him " do you enjoy doing this, to make me feel this way? he said no, " I am sorry what can I do to prove to you that that's not what I would want , is there anything that I can do to prove to you that that's not what I want . Now I was so hurt that I did not even answer. so he apologize and say he will not do it again.
I mean he would like to to have a child for him, but on that note when I asked him if he is serious he said very serious.. now with the jokes I am not sure if I should take him serious. He want for us to start trying for a child, but even though we had sex without protection like three times over the weekend, I still went ahead and purchase posting this morning, don't want to hurt his feelings but I have to protect mine.. What should I do guys.. I'm lost