I really couldn't come up with a better title..
As of tomorrow, I have been with my boyfriend for one month. I am quite happy whenever I am with him, but as soon as I am away from him, I wish to be free. To not be in any commitments. No promises, no love. I am an introvert. I like to be alone, and he accepts that. But I keep thinking about whether or not he really is fine with it. Me, canceling our promises for me to stay over at his apartment for the day or weekend, because I need to be with myself. I don't like showing affection in public, and I know most couples do.
I don't know if its just because it is winter and Christmas. I have headaches these days, a bad mood, and my need to be alone have skyrocketed. Then I have to think about Christmas gifts and other stuff that comes with Christmas, the headaches and "maintaining" my boyfriend. I don't think I can cope with it right now. Yet, when I am with him, I'm happy. Kinda. At least he makes me wanna think it over again and again.. whether or not I should break up with him.
I really don't know if I should break up with him to lift the storm inside of me a bit, or wait it through and see if it gets better. But that means I have to keep thinking of his needs, too.
I don't even understand myself. I make myself confused. that's why its a storm. I can't find my way inside of myself. I get lost.
... The question is, if I should break up with him, keep dating him while canceling(or not making any) our plans or.. keep dating him and do all this anyway to make him happy. I want him to be happy.
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I think you should break it off asap..
You driving yourself insane and you going to end up doing it to him as well...
I am like that to.. I want it.. But as soon as I am home.. It feel like a massive weight has been lifted.
You need someone that doesn't need you.. But needs you ..If you get my drift...
As for now , after only one month..and you feel like this.. Its bad...
Sounds like you feel pressured into "babying" and filling the needs of other peoples ..When
you can barely cope with yours own..You need to find you balance.