Before my current job, I was getting some work experience at a nursing home. It was there that an alert and oriented patient inappropriately touched me. Because people are idiots what happened was that he grabbed my ass and it stared there until I took it off. I rarely talk about what happened because I hate thinking about it. But I will list reasons why I didn't speak out about it and maybe people will understand why sexual assault victims don't usually come forward.
I currently have an amazing job at a hospital. There are still patients who get inappropriate. Last time when an inappropriate and creepy patient even tried to touch me, a coworker didn't hesitate to jump in front of me. His name is Kaleb. He's amazing and not just because he doesn't hesitate to help me with anything, even if it's small. He deserves a raise and all the cookies a person can possibly bake.
Don't get butt hurt meninists. Not saying all men do this. I told a female coworker what happened and she couldn't care less. She is the person I am talking about in number three. But at my current job when a patient tried, it was a male coworker that saved me.
1. Because I was terrified
2. I wanted to forget it happened and couldn't relive the nightmare by retelling what happened
3. Because the one person I did tell, couldn't care less
4. I didn't want to lose my job
5. I was afraid of being humiliated and embarrassed
6. I was afraid of being seen as less credible
7. He had power and influence over me
8. He was sneaky enough to assault me when no one was paying attention. That way it was my word against his.
9. Because the words, "who the fuck do you honestly think they will believe?" repeatedly popped into my head.
10. Because I didn't fit the mold of a stereotypical sexual assault victim. Right after it happened, I just stood there frozen in fear and couldn't bring myself to get words out of my mouth. I only told my supervisor and the first thing she said was, "why didn't you say anything to him?" I wasn't the cookie cutter shape of a sexual assault victim to her. According to her I should've been in hysterics, screaming about how wrong it was, and not wanting to work the rest of my shift.