I was really good friends with a man on GaG. He listened to all of my problems, asked me every day "Good morning, how was you day Fifi?" He helped me when I was thinking about running away, we even talked over the phone.
In our early stages of friendship, he hit on me...a lot. But I had no sexual interest in him. On the last day we talked, it was right after out first phone call. I was telling him that I planned on running away. After the call, I texted to him a few hours later "I changed my mind about running away" and I also told him I love you, but I meant it in a family/friend kind of way. He responded back "You are a sweet girl but I think you should go to bed now" I was a little drunk that night and I told him "Oh, so you can propose marriage (he did) but I can't say a simple I love you?"
The last thing he said was "You are a talented girl, but you shouldn't see me this way, you can do great things with your life but I think it's best if we cease contact" then he blocked me.
I considered him my best friend for months, he was the one person I trusted more than anything. Why. I wonder why every day. If he actually thought I meant I love you in a sexual way, wouldn't he have been happy? It's what he wanted I thought, even though its not what I meant. He was a lot older than me and a great guy, I miss hi dearly. It seems like such a stupid thing for a friendship to end over. I hope he sees this and knows how much pain he has caused me.
In a world when I thought I was alone in, you were my light, until you burned out.