So literally every birthday everyone forgets my birthday & I always spend it by myself and stop by to say hello to my family. Which is nice but the last time I did something was when I was 19 years old & I went out for dinner with a friend. It was nice because no one had done that before. I’ll be 23 next month and I’ve been thinking about how I haven’t done anything before. I guess I haven’t had any friends to spend it with unfortunately which is quite sad. Last year I was at work and didn’t tell anyone it was my bday and didn’t want them to know because I don't know I guess it was just a normal day & would’ve been embarrassed to say I wasn’t doing anything. Then at my other job they usually put balloons up at peoples desks and make it this big deal and literally everyone forgot and I got nothing on my desk. No bday card or anything. Of course I just brushed it off, but thinking back it was very sad that everyone just forgot. I wanted to kinda vent and talk about it since I don’t have anyone to share this with in real life with out sounding like a big baby getting pity from others. It just gets emotionally tiresome to always be there for myself and depend on myself and spend even special days by myself.
Why do you think this is so?