It sounds really odd; and I denied it until I just decided to be honest with myself.
I usually dress kind of bummy (unkempt hair; not cute unkempt, homeless unkempt), sweatshirts that my brother owned until he grew out of them, leggings and old Converse. And I honestly don't like looking like that. It makes me feel inferior, embarrassed if I especially see someone that I know in public. But I can't get out of the rut without "fighting" myself.
I made a vow this school year to look more groomed and show off my style (strangely, I love fashion). I just got my nails done in a light/natural pink color, and some waxing, and I honestly think that I look 100x better without makeup and still look like myself, but healthier (my "makeup" is just a tinted lip balm for rosy lips and brushing my eyebrows). I also got my hair done in this edgy look that I always wanted but was too afraid/insecure to get. I'm really into the natural look, so my makeup is minimal, my nails understated and my hair is it's natural color just shiny/healthy. But now that I'm sitting here, a part of me says "Don't dress up/You're going to look fake/you look vain/etc". This has happened before and I'll just revert to wearing ugly clothes, etc.
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If people are going to talk smack about you changing just ignore them. People are always going to judge us so might as well just feel good about ourselves/what we wear.0