I'm so problematic. I'm trying not to think about it but I can't really help it. my problems are my boyfriend and I broke up and I can't really accept it because I know and he told me I didn't really do anything bad. he was the one who has the problem. my 2nd problem is that I'm really getting tired of school. my course is dentistry. its so hard. I'm already delayed for 1 year. :'( I'm really doing my best but its really hard in my laboratory subjects because the professors are really perfectionists. 3rd is I'm tired of living. everyday same sh*t. boring. I wanna die. 4th is because of my depression from my breakup I feel I'm really ugly, seriously. my friends/people from school told me I became thinner now that I look like an addict. that I didn't look that good like before. that I look wasted. that I really look depressed. I'm not being cocky but I'm good looking. many people have said that its just that because of my problems I'm becoming less attractive so yeah I was shocked when the people at school/my friends told me that I look different now. :'(
I'm trying not to think about it or if I think about it I'm trying to think of a solution but nothing comes in my mind. I know I'm the one who has to solve my problems but really I cant. I'm really giving up. I've been praying and asking for god's guidance. but I don't know if he is listening to me :'(
I've been talking to my friends I'll be fine then after that when I'm alone I feel sad and depressed again. I don't really want to go to a counselor as much as possible
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We all go through hard times in life. I am sorry to hear how many problems you have right now. :-(
But there are some things I'd like you to remember in these hard times though-
Problem #1- For everything that happens there is a reason. There is a reason why your ex-bf is an ex-bf... He is simply not meant to be in your future. I know that hurts, alot. Remember there are plenty of good guys out there that are looking for nice, cute girls all the time. One of them is meant to be your future. :-)
Problem #2- The best things in life are never easy. My dad gave me a bit of advice when it comes to this kind of thing- if you do your best, you have nothing to be ashamed about. The test of a person isn't really how well they succeed in life, but if after failure they have gotten back up and brushed themselves off as many times as it takes to succeed.
Problem #3- Sometimes problems seem so big, and the path seems so dark and lonely, that it's easy to feel this way. That's why it is written "Though I walk through the Valley of the Shadow of Death I shall fear no evil, for You are with me." That doesn't just apply to dying, it applies to living as well. We all walk through a Valley in a Shadow, and God wants you to know He has not abandoned you. :-)
Problem #4- It's natural to feel rejected after something like this. It feels like nothing you do is ever good enough, and whatever you do you are rejected. You have to remember that unless you let this experience change you, you are the same girl that that boy wanted to be with. You are still worthy of what you want, and that hasn’t changed.
The flip side of problem #4 is that it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. If you see yourself as ugly, you will give up, and quit taking care of this attractive girl. Starving this girl, making her feel miserable, making her feel unwanted and unattractive...frankly, destroying that girl is a crime! I think that girl owes herself more than that. I think that girl needs to be loved… not just by a guy, but by herself too. :-)
God hasn’t abandoned you. He only puts us through challenges He knows we can get through, so you can learn and grow from it. God is listening, and as He promises will provide you with what you need to make it through this, because He knows you can!
I’d recommend reaching out to someone trained in helping you work through your feelings. Sometimes just talking to a counselor and letting someone else know what you are going through can help a lot.
Life is never easy, but then again, nothing that is worthwhile ever is. With the exception of Eddy, we are all pulling for you! :-))1