On Jan. 3rd 2011, something took place between me :Benjamin A. Wright III, And you :Adrian Sharda' Thomas, that I never thought would happen. We had a real break up, and now that I look back on the past, we never really had a break up, we would just stop talking to each other for a while. During the last few weeks of my life, I have had time to reflect on who I have become, who I was, and who I want to be..I am taking steps to become the person I want to be, and I honestly now understand that had we stayed together, I would have never learned on my own..The Break up was a blessing in disguise, It seemed like the end of the world to me as I only thought about the negative stuff, instead of seeing it as a new beginning..and looking at the positive.I met a wonderful young lady, who turned into a beautiful women. All the stuff I have seen you go through makes me so proud of you and you should be proud of your self cause you have over come so much..from losing everything in your car accident, to leaving your parents house,losing your job at the shoppet.. And you manage to turn your life all the way around..finding a even better job, and your own place, providing for your self..You made so many big changes in your life in such a small amount of time..and it is amazing to me. I never really thought about all the stress you must have been going through and then on top of that, the stress our relationship had to have been giving you.Your life was going forward and I wasn't making no kind of attempt to do anything with my self and days passed by...I sit here and I see that even though I didn't think at the time that I was taking advantage of you..I was. I wasn't there to give you what you needed, and I should have been, you took care of me for so long and that wasn't fair to you.you have been doing that for your family your whole life and all I did was add stress. What I want you to know is I am sorry for the stuff I have done and pain I have caused. I remember it all..From cheating, to throwing your cds out the car,to calling you names, and breaking your stuff..I was very wrong to do that specially knowing everything you have been through and lost. I now see that I didn't show you I loved you like I did. I won't sit here and tell you I didn't love you, because I did..but I didn't do what was needed to show you that I loved you. I was lazy not only physically but also from a relationship stand point. All the childish games and stuff, logging into your account..that was petty and I wish I would have controlled my self better then I did. I can't change the past but I can become a better me and build a better future for my self. I have learned more then you know from you..and I really want to tell you thank you and from the bottom of my heart I do appreciate it and all that you have done for me. I was going to wait to send this maybe a week or so later,
Love Forever -
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This letter is very heartfelt & sincere! Sometimes break ups do open our eyes. I went through one that as much as it brought me down and hurt me..it also made me a BETTER & STRONGER person/woman. I'm not sure of ya'lls relationship, but it sounds like you took her for granted (that was my Ex as well) I guess it happens ot the best of us. I'm sure she will need her time & space. Please don't expect anything out of this letter, because like you when my Ex left me, I wrote letters pouring my heart out & explaining how much I realize this and that and so on. I would write him letters meaning well, but I guess because of the pain and hurt I was expecting him to respond & then when he didnt, I'd lose it emotionally & beg for him to come back and so on. So with this, you wished her well, if you truly love her let her go, she may come back, she may not. My Ex was my first love as well, we were together almost 6 years, the good thing is yall have history, and believe me she loves & still has feelings for you! I've been apart from my ex for almost 2 years & we have yet to full end contact. I had a rebound guy & pushed my ex away! out of being hurt! Then when I was done with my rebound guy, he had a girlfriend who is kind of his rebound...its all bad timing and sucks! I have no clue where what my future holds as far as him, I just say whatever is meant to be will be. For now, take time for YOU, better yourself, build yourself up, do all the things YOU need to do. She will see the change and come back around. Keep ya head up! Best Wishes!