I don't like portraying this image to teenage girls that in order to fit in you need to be a 0 or 2. I hate telling really nice, pretty girls that we don't have their size and that they should try a different store.
Working there also makes me feel bad too. When I started college as a freshman I weight 100 lbs. Now as a senior I constantly go between 105 and 110. I'm only 5'0 so I know it's not that much but working there makes me feel like I constantly need to lose weight. I go to the gym for my minimum wage job, not because I want to be healthy. I'm on all these machines thinking "I need to be a 0 not a 1, 1 is too big." Even when I look in the mirror I just feel fat now. Part of it may just be me but I feel like my job isn't helping. Everytime I go to work I feel like I weight 200 lbs. not 105ish lbs. I feel like I should be in the gym all the time losing weight but no weight ever comes off. I look at the numbers on the scale and I know I can't be fat but I feel huge when I look in the mirror. I feel like it's all because of my job and I'm just so tired of trying to be the perfect weight all the time
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First of all, you do sound like a genuinely good person with a conscience about things. A conscience is something a lot of people don't seem to have these days.
If you feel like your job is a toxic environment to you, and it certainly does sound like it, I agree.. you definitely need to find something different. If you are able to live off of the $100 a week from your parents quite comfortably, by all means go ahead a jump ship soon. Not considering rent, car payments, utilities and such, $100 a week is pretty easy to live off of. Maybe that's just me, but I'm frugal and I have a kid to pay for. You'll just have to go with the necessities if it's tight. If you want more wiggle room, tough it out for a few more weeks and save a few paychecks up. I decided I was going to quit my job a month before hand and put what I could of my paychecks into savings. I put back 1k which I knew would be able to get me through for a little while, while taking into account emergencies like vehicle repairs or doctor's visits since I didn't have insurance. Stuff like that. You sound pretty confident that $100/wk is more than enough for you, however.
But, do you really think quitting your job is going to solve the issues you have with your self image? I don't think it's going to be the solve all, but it just might help more than I think to put yourself into an environment that is less superficial. I do hope so.0