Done With Relationships!

I don't get it with my ex boyfriend or with relationships in general.I feel like every time we try to move forward we always take a step back, I don't know what else to do anymore.I feel so trapped now.every time I try to leave my ex boyfriend he always gets in contact with me telling me that he loves me.then days after he doesn't answer my emails with the excuse being he doesn't get them because of a slow or bad internet connection.but its like he never calls me and when he does call me he calls me from private numbers so I can never get a hold of him when I want to talk to him.but its like.he knows I have a cell phone and he tells me he loves me so why wouldn't he want to call me, because he says he has things to do, and he's always busy.but its like I can't see myseld with anyone else but him.I have a connection with him that I don't have with anyone else, and when I do try to date someone else, they either want me for sex or treat me like shit.I feel like either way I'm never going to get the good end of the stick in relationships no matter what I do, I try to be good to them I REALLY do and I feel like its never good enough for any guy I date.I just feel like why am I not good enough for any man? Why do they all treat me like this? What did I do? Do I have bad karma? Is it me? am I ugly? I just don't get it.and when I tell him I'm going to walk away then he wants to call me and tell me this I love you and I am still not over you stuff but then ignores me when I want to have a general conversation with him.This just makes me not even want to be with men anymore because they always do this to me and I didn't do anything wrong to them.I don't think I was meant to be with anyone.maybe this is God telling me that I wasnt meant to be in a long term relationship with anyone or maybe I am not compatable with anyone or I'm not good enough to meet any mans needs or desires.I don't know about anything anymore.I spent a whole year and then some trying to make him happy and even took him back more than once when he messed up and this is what I get in return nothing but the feeling of being alone and used, no matter what I do, no matter what race I date I always get the same thing.there must be something about me that attracts the assholes even though I know inside I'm a good person. I guess it just wasnt meant for me to be with anyone.I really don't believe there is a soulmate or that one person out there for me otherwise I wouldn't be treated like shit so much over and over I've given up on relationships.I can't do it anymore.I'm so tired of being treated like crap when I don't deserve it, but every time I get my hopes up and someone else comes along they're twice as bad as the loser I was with before.I'm so sick to my stomach with this and guys wonder why women are so bitter. so anyway.anyone has any feedback? feel free.
Done With Relationships!
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