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Hmm - is it because your afraid to be too girlie? Like you don't want to give off the vibe that your some superficial, cares to much about her appearance, thinks she's so pretty vibe?
That's my reason for being a tomboy sometimes lol -
I grew up getting dirty - not on a farm or anything (city girl,) sometimes I'd help out on my cousin's farm over the summers - but besides that, I was just into sports and doing guy things. Didn't mind getting messy. On top of being told that showing weakness is never good - and women are always perceived as weak, so I associate that idea with heels and dresses - though now I realize how much power a sexy little dress and some pumps can actually give a girl lol
So It could be more of a mental thing, like you don't want people to get the wrong idea about you or something like that maybe?
But it is weird - it's so weird when you first start embracing that aspect of being female. Not sure what to make of yourself in the dress, ankles hurt already from putting on the heels - your thinking wtf am I doing?
But change is always weird lol
Just slowly adjust yourself to it - like start doing more girl oriented things like getting your nails and hair done proffesionally.
Start to look at yourself as being a hardworking, but also beautiful and sexy woman. Embrace your attributes / curves and your beauty.
Play with your make up - look up different tecniques to do, have fun with color. Play with your hair too - try to put it in new styles, curl it , flip it, etc -
It also helps if you have some chick friends who are more into that girlie scene, who will help you do your hair, do your make up, critique how you look etc - go out shopping with, and do that kinds of stuff with.
My bestie is more on the girlie side - like she wears heels every day girlie - and she made the process fun and a lot less weird.