I always feel bad and jealous when I don't get to talk to him. Like if anyone else is having a conversation with him I feel jealous that it's not me. Cause all I want to do is just talk to him and get to know him but I'm too scared. I'm always scared of rejection. I feel as if I am not attractive enough for him and that I don't stand a chance. I always look for opportunities to speak with him but they don't come very often cause we are in different departments. It's frustrating having crushes on people when you're not super confident in yourself.