Ok so first off wedding freak me out to the max, I get all paniced and start hyperventlating not kidding or being dramatic. So a few months ago I asked him to go with me and he said he would go but he would have to wait and see cause his job calls him at random times. So I was talking to him about the wedding and asked him to go with me and he was like nah people are going to be talking about us and asking y your with me. Cause he's black and 12 years older than me . ANd in my fam we have a lot of age diffrances which is not a big deal but my fam is from france so only one other person is married to a black man. I was like so what let them talk I love you and I don't give a f*** bout them. ANd not many people in my fam are going cause it's a friends wedding. SO why doesn't he want to go with me? I mean he knows how freaked out weddings get me and how I don't ever want to get married , and he's OK with that. SO I just don't get y he won't go with me.