I'm 19 years old, I like drawing and books and oh by the way, I'm a diagnosed sociopath.
There are many MANY people that automatically assume all sociopaths are BAD and can't feel anything... like no feelings at all.
I actually find it kinda funny - when you tell someone 'I'm depressed, I have anxiety, I suffer from panic attacks' the response usually sounds something like 'Oh, I'm so sorry.'
But when someone says they're a sociopath, people immediately judge you.
So I just kinda stopped mentioning it.
You know, before you ask - we have emotions, of course we do. I'm still a human, right?
Sociopaths may not feel emotions the same way as other people do, but the thing we're lacking is empathy.
I can preted that I feel bad for your dead hamster, but honestly, even if I wanted to, I just can't be truly sad for you.
Even love is kinda... strange. I heard many girls talking about butterflies in their stomach, when they are with their lover/crush, but for me - the butterflies aren't there.
Sometimes I wonder what love TRULY feels like...
When you tell someone you're a sociopath, there are many stupid questions you get.
"Does that mean you are empty inside?", "You wouldn't cry when your parents die?", "Can you feel hapiness?" but there was one from my ex-boyfriend... "Can you even feel love?", it was when we were breaking up, because apparently I didn't give him enough attention.
There wasn't any special feeling I could compare to love. We started dating, because he was trying really, really hard, so was just like 'meh, let's date.'
He was a nice guy, he knew about my condition and yet he wanted to date me.
As always, the butterflies weren't there and they never appeared, but I didn't mind being with him, I didn't mind his presence and being with him was fun, that's probably the closest feeling to love I can get.
To wrap this up- If you have any questions, feel free to ask.