Most Helpful Guy
On his part it was never love.
On your part i am not entirely sure, it certainly isn't right now lol.
Most Helpful Girl
No. Love is not supposed to hurt like that. This is abuse: mental and emotional abuse to be exact. What he is doing is wasting precious years of your life on his immature, unpleasant, ridiculous, intolerable messes. What he is doing is taking back invaluable moments, opportunities, and memories that you are physically impossible of getting back. He's not good for you. A man who loves you will take care of your heart and be delicate with it. He will treat you well and he will not add onto the chaos that you experience in this world. Get rid of him.
You seem like you are just comfortable and afraid to let him go because you've already spent so much time on him. But if he hasn't improved or change in over five years, then he never will. This is who he is and you are just passively, submissively agreeing to be along for his ride of bullsh*t. Get him out of your life. You deserve better.