I've had trauma since I was a toddler due to neglect and abuse. I was actually a really bright and creative kid and young person. I got straight A's and went to a top college all while the abuse was happening. But years of being broken again and again have left me scarred to the point where I feel like I can't stand up anymore. My situation is fine now, I go to therapy, I live a clean life, but emotionally I just don't have it anymore to succeed at anything. I feel like such a waste of life.