Back in 2018 to 2019 a family member sexually abused me. It has affected me so much where I cry everyday. I hate my life so much and don't understand why I had to go through this. I keep it bottled up to my self since I find it embarrassing to talk to my close family and friends. My sister found out last year and she threaten me. I feel sad all the time. I feel no man will ever want to be with me if he finds out my past. I also became afraid of guys approaching me now, I get nervous and try avoiding.
this is the worst feeling ever.. i just miss being happy