I Know this is very childish, weird and may seem as superficial or looking for attention.
Happens that I do not think I'm disgusting to the eyes of the human race ( seems like it, to cats, I do, they really hate me. )
Anyway, so I have the opinions of friends, family and most other girls that say that I'm pretty, but I don't feel them count (because they have some sort of affecftion and kindness)
I have a year now living with a man who is slightly older than me, 20 (me ) vs 29 (him) He never had a serious girlfriend, and sometimes he can be very hurtful. I have a good position in a huge company,I did finish my uni years, I speak four languages, I do not drink, do drugs and party not very frequently. I feel pretty mature for my age, I do not feel insecure in who I am, but how I look , hell I do.
I'm slim, quite short 5' 6½", C cup, and I do not feel flat in "the back" either. When it comes to my boyfriend he almost never throws a compliment, even though I try to be always dressed up, for going out with him, or for work, he will never says a word, but if my hairstyle got messed or I get an occassional zit, HE WILL NOTICE, or notice another girl's beauty *Out loud* smh, So probably this is the best I never will be(I say it because of my age, because right now I do not feel very pretty) and I do not want to have issues when I'm older and this is really affecting me. I tried talking to him, and he says he'll never say those things to me, I do not have male friends, I do not go out alone, I support him, I try to do my best but still is not enough for him, But what really affects me is his plainless about me, that's why I come asking for help to you lovely strangers! Thank you very much.
Indeed, we're still broken, he said he wasn't kicking me out, I should take my time, and also,"please let's be good friends, let's go to movies, I'll pick you up from work, etc", He went on a vacation, and he came back as nothing showing me videos of the animals and stuff, but he didn't brought the topic, I'm in pain, but destiny knows what's best.