I am literally feeling suicidal because of my rejections from women. So far the only girls who want to know me are the female racehorses I massage and prostitutes. Oh and I can't really smile because of my depression.
Most Helpful Girl
I've been following your posts for a while now.
Look, I've been suicidal before, so I know how in a rut it feels. It's hard to come off as helpful without sounding like I don't understand. The truth is, I think you're a nice guy. You're young, you're smart, you've got battles, but you've also got tonnes of potential to become something great. I've got a few pointers you might try to consider. Hopefully, they help.
- Talk to a stylist about a haircut that'll suit you best. Maybe hit the gym!
- Work on your depression. You've gotta fix yourself before a relationship, or (1) it's not fair on the person you're dating, (2) you'll expect the person to fulfill a void that only you can fulfill, leaving both people miserable, (3) An asshole might see your depression/desperation, and use it against you (Remember that Craigslist date?).
W0t do? - Talk to a therapist. If you don't want therapy, keep a journal where you write your problems and feelings, and then write solutions to your problems, different viewpoints of the problem, and then, your progress. Depression tip 2: When your depression makes you not want to do something (eg SMILE), you MUST do that thing. Ie, you MUST smile, because that is exactly the thing that will scare your depression off.
- You are absolutely 100% obsessing about sex. Bro, it's damaging you, like, beyond. Fuck, it's making you suicidal. Focus on other things and get mad skills.
- Pick up some interesting hobbies! Might help you against the depression + distract you from sex, + it'll help you make friends with people, including girls.
- Less obsessive = less desperate. I can't count the # of times I got scared off a cool guy because of how desperate he came off as.
- Be less angry, bro. I can see how angry you are at women and the world about your autism, and women = golddiggers. You've got so much anger, it scares me. The world hasn't got patterns you can use to generalize and predict. Just accept things, learn that wisdom, and move on. Let go of your bitterness and have faith, or you'll scare people off and remain depressed.
Tip: Be Careful about which women you aim for. Craigslist = 100% going to meet a con artist = fucking mistake. Get good at reading people. Don't hurt yourself on human trash.
The most important thing for you is to *be patient with yourself*. You're a very young person trying to figure it out. We all are. Give yourself all the time you need, man. You've got this. I believe you can do it.0
Most Helpful Guy
Yes you are0