Honestly, I wouldn't mind being ugly if I was somewhat smart. I feel as if I was cursed, because I have a brain the size of a peanut, I am overweight and I'm ugly. There is literally nothing good about me, and I know I'm not the only one that thinks this. People can't even compliment me on anything. I've been spending my time studying real hard for the past month, I went from 64% in pre-calc to 94% and 66% in biology to 100%. The sad part is that I don't have much of a social life anymore, but that's fine. I plan on becoming a doctor or lawyer, publish my own book and hopefullu become successful. As for my looks, I want to go from 160 lbs to 120 lbs, get a boob job, get my teeth bonded and possibly a nose job. I want to be out of everybody's league by the time I'm 25 and make everyone regret for treating me like shit. I don't know if it's possible to go from a troll to a supermodel, but I would love to see everyones transformation. I just want to feel that there is the possibility I could grow up to be beautiful.
Most Helpful Guy
I think it's excellent that you're focusing on your studies but there's so much insecurity here that it's overwhelming.
Beautiful girls are a dime a dozen in some of the more fashionable and urban places in the world. Finding ones worth a damn is a considerably rarer thing, and the ones who are worth a damn don't play the league game. They don't sum people up in terms of a simple numerical value. If you want to be a keeper and not just a sexy pair of legs, first thing to do is to try to rise above all that.
It's great if you want to improve your appearance but things like breast augmentations push you towards the shallower end of beauty. They'll make your breasts fill up a dress and draw some eyes that way in a purely sexual kind of way, but no man I've ever known who has been with a girl who has augmented breasts prefers that for a girlfriend (yes, pornstars may have them but that's pure visual stimuli, few guys would ever want a pornstar for a girlfriend).
Right now if you want to develop sexual appeal, it'd be good to fall in love with a physical activity to balance your studies. It's easier if you love doing the activity (ex: a sport) or are somewhat forced into doing it (ex: an aerobics class or kickboxing class you have to attend regularly).
Even for an intellectual, if you lack physical health, your studies will tend to exhaust you more, you'll more easily get overwhelmed by everything, and your stress levels can rise unbearably. The key to mental health is to balance it with physical health.
And the best time to start getting fit is now, not save it up all for the future with surgery. It's easier to make bolder transformations physique-wise when younger, harder when older.
Last but not least, if you end up becoming too antisocial, you'll end up feeling like a complete outsider to society. That'll make you look at it more in an oversimplified black and white fashion, it'll feed your insecurities, bring your confidence down to zero, and make it increasingly harder to join in and immerse yourself in the social side of the world.
And lacking that ability is detrimental even from a career standpoint, because jobs aren't handed out based on an exam. Promotions aren't handed out based on some test. They're handed out by people who consider you a valuable addition to a workplace, and struggling to get along with anybody can really deprive you of opportunities there.
So for now, I recommend trying to socialize a bit more and work out.1
Most Helpful Girl
have you thought about seeing someone for your depression and anxiety? My daughter would come out say exactly the same stuff.. she is in therapy and having a more optimistic outlook in life..
You have these goals you have set for 25... you want all these things, not typing you won't get them all but to me your putting so much pressure on yourself that's not healthy...
First priority is getting you back to a neutral to happy state before everything else... plastic surgery won't fix your depression to be perfect if anything it will aggravate it.
Some talkin therapy will do you good... my daughter stopped gorging on food for comfort and has went down 2 dress sizes and she is ecstatic... just a thought for u.. as for bonding.. forget the falsies if you need braces get them instead...0