I met this guy last Christmas and at first he was super sweet and perfect. Then in February we started dating. Which was good but I was in school an hour away but we made it work. Then before my last exam in April I was stressing he said the wrong thing I got made he ignored me for two days and dumped me over text when I was at the mall. (His friend harassed me for two weeks after) Then two weeks later he ended up coming over for a party and I broke down cause I really liked him and was drunk he said he got freaked out cause he cared so much and we ended up back together. But he's best friend hated me now so there were issues and in July we ended up breaking up cause he was to jealous. But the he came back in like a week saying he loved me and he f***ed up so we were talking about getting back together till Sept when we both went to school. I wanted just to be FWB cause I didn't wanna get hurt so we tried it and we f***ed and I got pregnant. Fun times told him he was kinda there for me and I lost it. in November which is really f***ing depressing by the way. So then we were back together and he told me he loved me when I told him he didn't have to but I loved him to then on Thursday he asked what I thought about marriage and kids, I don't know how I feel about marriage right now like I'm 19 but I just lost a baby and I cry every night about it. So I said I don't know. He told me he wanted me in his future and get married and sh*t in this same day an hour later he comes on Facebook and breaks up with me because I don't want a kid right now.
Now I'm stuck in love with him and he said he just stopped caring.
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Sucks about the kid and the situation - but if you don't want this sh*t happening, don't put yourself in those situations.. You did so by taking back a boyfriend which broke up with you for a stupid reason.
Losing the kid is a traumatic experience. It'll probably stick with you for a long time, but realize that there is nothing you can do to "change" the fact of your loss. You can't bring this kid back to life as much as you wish you could. So there's no reason to beat yourself up for something where you can't change anything.
Keep your chin up and learn to improve. The way you treat yourself is an expression of how you'll treat others.