One in four people in the world will be affected by mental or neurological disorders at some point in their lives. Around 450 million people currently suffer from such conditions, placing mental disorders among the leading causes of ill-health and disability worldwide. Yet over 50% of these people don't get the treatment they need."
I am one of those people struggling throughout my life. While I mostly suffer in silence on the outside, the depression and racing thoughts are screaming on the inside.
" Why does everyone hate me so much?"
"I'm a such a failure. Why should I bother?"
I dread going out and having to speak to someone or answering the phone. The answer is always no.
"Do you want to hang out?"
No, I don't.
"Want to go to dinner? A movie? Anything?"
No, I just want to stay home.
Why bother? No one cares what I have to say. They never hear me anyway.
It is hard for me sometimes to do basic things that other people do. Things as simple as brushing my hair/teeth, taking a shower, or cooking a meal for myself are a very difficult task. I have to push myself hard just to get out of bed. I have no motivation anymore to do anything. All of the things I used to care about and enjoyed no longer interest me. After being lost in my own mind, I realized they were never really that important anyway. I do absolutely nothing. Just an empty shell of a person.
It doesn't matter what time I wake up, I am always still tired and the only thing I want to do is sleep. I watch the clock all day and wait until it is late enough to where I can go to sleep and not wake up in the middle of the night. People misinterpret this as lazy, but it is a classic depression symptom. The motivation and energy is simply not there.